Contemplating if i am gifted?

i have obsessed of the thought of me being gifted. i fit nearly all the behaviors of gifted when i read it. i just found out about the defined and study of the gifted. and it fits me. but i do not perform in school well and i have huge walls with people. i have learned to be average. but in me there is this craziness. i am extremely introspective when bored with life, and i am frequently bored with life. my dad is an alcoholic which is known to have an affect on behavior inconsistency, and my behavior is inconsistent. i have to be sound in the mind to function the way i feel is adequate for myself. it seems that is always found in faith or true acceptance from people. i have been fully convinced i am gifted at some points and then doubt myself others. it has turned into an obsession. i know i am capable of doing great in school. it seems my thoughts are always somewhere beyond the school system. i am constantly thinking. i am able to see peoples motives and the way people think beyond comfort. i am frequently nervous in social situations, i feel like i am in a great habit of suppressing myself. i also seem to be able to explain myself better by writing rather than talking. the question is am i gifted? or could i be? i have always felt different, not in a bad way, but just am. (on an intellectual and emotional level) i am also able to perceive and actually do perceive life in a whole different level than others. i am very sensitive to morals especially when i listen to myself.